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If you are Indian, there are 80% chances that you will have arranged marriage. I am an Indian and belongs to a well-cultured family who believes in arranged marriages only. Don’t mistake this statement, culture has Nothing to Do with the marriage.

So, as soon as I got a job after my engineering, my parents started looking for a girl.  I was posted in Mumbai and being the only child of my parents, I wanted them to stay with me in whatever city I work. They too agreed to this point. So we were looking for a girl who is ready to stay with my family. In few months, my parents were able to find a good match for me. I saw her photo and nodded my head with a yes. I never had a girlfriend so obviously no choice of any other girl. This girl named Naina was beautiful, a bit bulky and fair. She was never interested in the job after marriage so that is a big jackpot for me, she could take care of my parents whole day. One fine day, we got married. Naina belongs from a village, so she took much time settling in Mumbai. Except for traveling alone anywhere, she managed to do everything on her own. I never expected anything great from her, except good bonding with my parents and treat me with love.we had everything that a good marriage should have: trust, love, affection & care. We decided to extend our family as she has nothing much to do a whole day, she too wanted to have kids soon. So before our first wedding anniversary, she got pregnant. She gave birth to a beautiful little girl 9 months later. It was a good time. Complete family at one place, happily spending time together every day. Soon, my daughter started growing. Time was flying like a jet. 1 year, 2 years and 3 years passed away really fast and our daughter started going to school. I was really happy with my life. Everything was going really good. I got busy with my job as I got promoted to a senior manager. I hardly got time for family but I always made sure that I talk to everyone after coming home from work. My wife never showed interest in working and I was completely okay with her decision. Since last few nights I saw her busy chatting on

Everything was going really good. I got busy with my job as I got promoted to a senior manager. I hardly got time for family but I always made sure that I talk to everyone after coming home from work. My wife never showed interest in working and I was completely okay with her decision. Since last few nights I saw her busy chatting on Whatsapp till almost 2-3AM, typing, reading and smiling. I thought she must have made a group with her gang of friends and so she is happy with some jokes or forwards. Well, this thing continued even during our private time. I asked her several times to at least leave mobile when we are together talking or doing something. Some days later, she went to the washroom and her phone rang. I saw some notifications of WhatsApp, but that’s all from one person. I never checked her phone till now but this time, I was just curious and clicked on Whatsapp. Those all messages were from a guy whom she met at a recent wedding of her cousin. I never mind her friendship with boys but those sleazy messages were not at all acceptable to me. I read the whole conversation of a day, the previous one was deleted obviously. Somehow I felt very bad and couldn’t sleep the whole night. I decided to track her Whatsapp messages so that I can talk to her directly with some facts. I logged into Whatsapp web with her number secretly and tracked her chat of one complete day. They both were talking like a couple talks in a relationship, love you messages, miss you and my wife discussed how I behave with her in bed! That guy started virtual sex through messages and my wife was enjoying those messages. I was shocked and broken!

Next morning I called her from the office asking who is that guy who is messaging you late night. She was silent. After asking for few more times, she said just a friend. I said I read all your messages and I am sorry without permission I touched your mobile. She said we will talk once you are home. It was a very disturbing day. I do so much for my family and this is what I am getting in return. A betrayal from my own wife!! I have never touched any other girl in my life except my wife. I got so disturbed that so I went  home early that day. I went to my room directly and asked my wife to come there. She came and started crying. She said,”I’m sorry, forgive me, please. That guy started flirting with me and I too was enjoying his talks. I love you but I don’t know how things went so wrong.” I asked,”what else you guys talk? Tell me frankly, I will not take any stupid action” She said,”sometimes we talk about sex too. About our relationship, our talks and that’s it” I asked,”does he know we have a 3 years old daughter?” ..Yes, he knows-She said. I was completely shattered. I work so hard for my family, for their comfort I give up my sleep many times and this is what they are giving me in return.!! I was clueless about my action so I kept quiet. She promised me that she won’t be talking to that guy ever. It has been 7 months now but I am still not normal. Whenever I try to touch my wife, those talks, and that guy’s face comes in front of me. I am very disturbed. I don’t want any separation from my wife as I love my daughter and I don’t want her to suffer cause of us. I don’t know what made her did so. I always did what she asked, always got things that she demanded and loved her too. I am not impotent (as I have a daughter) I still don’t know the reason behind her act. I don’t know when will I become normal to her and at home. This small act of my wife ruined all my dreams. All I needed from her was loyalty and she failed in giving that too.

I really wish that someday I forgive her, someday I am back to normal life, and someday I love her again but it is difficult for me. I haven’t shared this incident with anyone and I don’t know how to end this story, so I m leaving it with an open end. If anyone of you want to suggest me about what should I do now, I would really be grateful.

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